I don’t know how to begin, neither know how to finish. Recently, I saw me in a different way, I stopped seeing me and I started seeing us, I was surprised how I realized that I am getting tired of everything, I get tired of wait, I get tired of you and I get tired of me, I’m tired of pretending that nothing is wrong, I got tired of holding on to situations meaningless and feelings that didn’t exist, I’m afraid to know that people can get me out of their hearts and I’m afraid of not having you with me. It saddens me to know that nothing will be the same, but also it makes me feel good.
I want to go somewhere, I want to go away, go away to come back and come back to know that I’ve gone. I fell in love and I felt that you’ve come back, I found my beast and I felt you again. All the day you are with me but you disappear every night. I know that you’re still here, I need you here. I know that you can do it and I can have you back. I need you to believe in me, as I’ve always believed in you. I know it’s strange to write this, but I had to do it, I had to know it.